Saturday, March 8, 2014

Becoming an orphan.

Well, life changed for me on the 4th February.  Sadly my father passed away and I am now coping with the aftermath of this awful event.  I am so glad that I got to spend the last five years with him. 

Many of you know about all the form filling and horribleness that you have to deal with, but it's a first for me and yes, I do feel sorry for myself at times.  I am an only child and therefore it is all falling on my shoulders.  

Here is a sweet photo of me and my Dad chatting as I painted in my makeshift studio in his house.  



He was my rock and I miss him so much.

To restore my sanity, after three weeks I finally made it back to University and got back to printmaking.  The deadline for my final project is mid May and I am now panicking a little!  All this on top of all that form filling!  The last words Dad really said to me was you must finish your MA and that's what I am trying to do.  

Sorry to those who have already heard this, but many of you just get my blog and not the Facebook page.  

So this is what I have been up to.    Two etchings, all part of my big final project.


Stream - Soft ground, sugar lift aquatint - 22 x 15 cm - in progress I think.

Titanus giganteus - Hard ground etching - 22 x 15 cm
Thank goodness the daffodils are finally coming out.  





12 comments:

Deborah Paris said...

Hi Lynne. What a lovely photo of you and your dad. He was a handsome chap! I know exactly what you are going through and my heart goes out to you. It is so hard to lose your parents. I was very close to mine and although they are gone now 10 years I still think of them every day. The good thing is that the memories become happy ones and overtake the sadness.

XXOO
Deborah

Maud Guilfoyle said...

Be patient with yourself. The best thing is to be committed to your art work as you are. I lost my mom, Peregrine Higgins,also an artist last summer, and jumped into a landscape painting project for a few months. It can be a healing bridge that gets you away from the immediate grief. Still have to process, but having work and goal dates was enormously helpful. I am sorry for your loss, Maud Guilfoyle

Janelle Goodwin said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your dad's passing. I've been through it and know what a hollow feeling that is. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Lynne E. Windsor said...

Thanks Deborah, I thought he was pretty handsome too! I appreciate your words of comfort. I am definitely at the stage where I just wish it hadn't happened... like a spoilt child stamping her feet...such a strange feeling.

Lynne E. Windsor said...

Thank you Maud, that's definitely what I am doing. All the paperwork is somewhat overwhelming though, but I try to do that just at the weekend. I appreciate your kind words. What a wonderful draughtswoman your mother was! I love the drawing and words about being awake early in the morning before the sun rises. So true, so beautiful.

Lynne E. Windsor said...

Thank you so much Janelle. Some days you think you are getting along just fine, then suddenly it hits you like a wave doesn't it? I was cycling across Midsummer Common last week and I felt as if I had been hit by a huge gust of wind... it knocks the stuffing out of you.

Caroline Simmill said...

So sorry to hear about the loss of your dear father. What a lovely photo of the two of you together. All the best with the study your father will be with you daily in your happy memories of all the time spent together.

Lynne E. Windsor said...

Thank you so much Caroline. Yes, many happy memories. I hope you are well?

Julie Ford Oliver said...

I always admired your love, loyalty and special connection to your father. It came across in so many of your posts. You will be blessed with many wonderful memories and when the grief hits hard out of the blue, remember it is because you cared so deeply for this special man. My true sympathy is sent with a hug.
I love the photo.
Glad you are working again and the daffs are a treat. http://www.overlandgallery.com/GalleryData/GarySmithIMG.asp?RECORD_INDEX=11

Lynne E. Windsor said...

Thank you Julie for your lovely words. Very much appreciated.

Anonymous said...

Hi my name is bianca stewart and I am a ophran my dad died when I was 13 and my mum 3 years leater I'm now 22. I would like to tell you that I feel ur pain I stay n glasgow and its only me and my little boy a don't have any family attol but I manged you will too x its very herd lossing your mum and dad I miss them every day and wish a could just hold her for too wee minites its so hard noning you can't but you will one day in hevan that's what keeps me goning noneing one day al hole them again so try live your life to the happiest you can becues one day yous will meet again I truley belev that xx I wish you all the happness the the world lynne and feel sorry for your self no one elas will lol no but really good luck n life and look fowrd to the day uz will meet again love bianca xx

Lynne E. Windsor said...

Dear Bianca, thank you for sharing your story with me. You certainly seem to have had a very difficult life. In comparison mine is easy. I sincerely hope that things get better for you and your son. Stick together. 22 is so young to be a Mummy. You are doing a great job. Love, Lynne